I Surrender

Ishvara pranidhana, a phrase I was introduced to from you yoga teacher.

This phrase means surrender.

I used to think of surrender meant weakness and defeat. While it may still hold a bit of that meaning, I have shifted my thinking in such a way that it has a more gentle feel to it. It doesn't hold a negative defeatist connotation.

This surrender, ishvara pranidhana, generates an acknowledgement, an acceptance of the present situation.

Now in my grief, I am ceasing to resist. I am no longer resisting the emotions and feelings. I am no longer fighting the tears, the screams, the chaos. I am accepting the present situation and learning to adjust. I don't resist the need to adjust, I am acknowledging that this is something I need to do in order to become resilient.

I am not fighting against it anymore. I am practicing ishvara pranidhana. I am not giving up. I am learning to live with Grief in Life.